I can’t help but have second thoughts at times along this journey. Things that I put in place early on – having someone sublet my house, transitioning to work from home at my job, and so forth – have been falling through on me as I get closer and closer to my departure date.
With each change, I stop and ask myself am I doing the right thing?
Sometimes, I say yes, and I decide that if I have to let go of my house or find a new job that’s what I have to do to make this dream work. Other times, I think it makes more sense to stay in the comfort that is my house and my job. Living in a van and travelling the country is crazy, right?
There’s no shortage of having second thoughts about everything. Is this what I want? Will I be ready? Can I do this? Even still, sometimes I can’t help but think what’s there to lose?
As it stands, what began as good news with the go ahead from my job, now sits at a crossroads. It may not be something that can be accommodated any longer. It was a big ask, so I get it, but nonetheless, it’s disappointing. Should I keep pressing on? Find a new job? Abandon my trip? It’s those moments where it seems so much easier to just say nevermind, but at what cost?
At the end of the day, I tell myself that nothing worth doing is easy. It would probably be more concerning if I didn’t have the occasional doubt. I’ve also done incredibly difficult things before and I choose to live my life without regrets, so regrets I will not have. Maybe it is a little crazy, but so am I and honestly, I can do this. I can do anything I set my mind to.
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