This week I almost didn’t write a blog. I have several almost ready to go but didn’t have enough time or energy to polish them up. But then, while I was feeling down about not keeping my promises to post every week, I was struck a bit of inspiration. I wanted to show the bare reality of what this project and what this journey means.
Some days it means its tough. Some days it means I don’t want to try. Some days I feel like I’m stuck in a rut and there’s simply no progress. Its especially hard when the only thing limiting the progress is me.
If you don’t know me personally, and even if you do, you may not know that finishing projects for me is just downright difficult. I have what feels like a muse in my ear constantly feeding me inspiration for project after project after project. But somewhere along the way, the muse disappears and the inspiration dries up. That’s something I’ve been worried about since I considered buying LuLu. I really should be very proud that I’ve made it so far on this project. And I am.
But that doesn’t mean its still not really hard to stay focused!
As of this writing, I’m stalled out on the distributor and the ceiling. Why, you ask, when both are so close to being done? Well, its because I need help with the distributor. I don’t really know what I’m doing, so I’m procrastinating. As for the ceiling, I’m going to have to re-do part of it. It’s not the end of the world and its not even going to be particularly difficult. Redoing things is just not my forte. You name it…new recipe, new project, new hobby, new skill…its practically unheard of for me to do a test run!
It’s not going to stop me, though. Just slow me down.
And all I really want to do is decorate. Move in. But until I finish the ceiling, I can’t.
I have to finish the ceiling.
So I’m going to try again. This time I think I’ll get it right. I just have to find the executive function to actually do it.
I should have good news for you in the following weeks, so thanks for being here and thanks for reading! It’s not an easy journey, but its still pretty fun.
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